Tujuan Terakhirmu

Aku selalu yakin bukan karena tidak bisa. Kau hanya sedang dalam perjalanan yang sangat panjang. Mengembara pelangi, menangkap senja. Kau hanya sedang pergi sangat jauh mencari puing puing cerita untuk kau kenang di masa datang. Kau hanya sedang pergi bekerja, melakukan tugas mu, bersenang-senang, bersinergi dengan waktu. 

Aku selalu yakin bukan karena tidak bisa. Kau hanya sedang berurusan dengan orang lain, bergumul dengan lembar kerja, dan mengisinya dengan tinta berbagai warna.

Aku yakin bukan karena tidak bisa, kau hanya sedang dalam perjalanan pulang. Aku yakin akulah satu-satunya alasan kau pergi, untuk menjadi tujuan terakhirmu nanti.

Bersinergilah, temukan warna-warnamu. Aku percaya kau hanya sedang dalam perjalanan, bukan pergi untuk selamanya.  Aku yakin setelah entah apa saja hal-hal yang kau alami selama kau pergi, kau akan berakhir di sini, di rumah ini. Aku akan menyambutmu dengan sangat hangat, membuatkanmu teh panas, kita akan mendengarkan ceritamu selama kau pergi, kau akan membawakan senja itu untukku, dan akan kita nikmati berdua. Hanya kita berdua.

Cinta Tak Pernah Salah

Cinta tidak bisa salah, kau tahu? Waktu yang bisa. Bahkan ketika semua terasa salah, hatimu akan selalu terpaut dengan satu yang kamu cinta. Kita memang tidak pernah mengerti pada apa atau siapa kita dapat menempatkan cinta. Mengendalikan cinta, kurasa Tuhan pun sulit melakukannya. Aku mulai tidak mengerti apakah ini kutuk atau berkat. Namun nyatanya aku terpikat oleh senyum di garis wajahnya yang terasa pekat. Tulus, hangat. 

Mereka bilang bahwa "kau hanya hidup sekali". Aku akan hidup beribu-ribu kali, demi senyum itu sekali lagi.

Selamat malam Boss!

Bagaimana bisa aku melupakan senyum itu. Bagaimana bisa aku melupakan moment-moment itu. Saat ia berlagak sok tahu, saat ia sok pintar dan sedikit banyak bicara. Saat seolah semua orang mengenalnya. Bagaimana aku bisa meninggalkan kenangan-kenangan itu? Kenangan saat pertama kali ia beri obat flu itu. Saat mata kita bertemu di suatu titik kala itu. Dia selalu tahu cara membuatku jatuh cinta. Itulah mengapa ia tak terlalu merasa takut kehilangan aku. Ia adalah casanova. Ia tau cara melepasmu, dan menarikmu kembali. Lucunya, beberapa wanita senang, atau terlalu bodoh hingga diperlakukan begitu. Aku tidak senang, aku hanya terlalu bodoh. 

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It is not always easy to win a bowl

Sometimes we have to chase down and crawl

Sometimes we win

Sometimes we loose

Sometimes we need to get into fights to save our last breath

Sometimes we think we stand a chance but all we had is a bunch of junk

But to pass our hunger we need a bigger valour

Unfortunately i must say this is the hardest one that any other man can break

It is you, are the reason why i crawled in You got me creepin in a blurriest direction

I am sitting tight to every chair that are straight to you

Im holding my ground and sticking everyone's gun

Just to fit in to your feet

To be the one and only

To bring my favorit bowl on my own

When i'm with you

I think i can fly, think i can touch the sky

When im with you

I think i can fly, break through the night

When im with you

Cause when the sun goes down and out of lights

I see a million shinning stars through your eyes

When the day goes dark and seems so cold

I feel the fire flames in your hand when you hold

We could wait for another sunrise forever

Forever

When im with you

Forever will never be so hard

Cause i think i can fly, i think i can touch the sky

When i'm with you. 

I Say

They say as you grow up your prioroties change. As you grow up you want a future. They say as you grow up you want quality, you want something real, something you can grow, something you proud of. Well i say, i want something to be proud of now, something real now (i've been real from the begining anyway) and something good happen to my life everyday. I don't feel like i have to change any prespective about anything from myself. I am not regret about the past. Nights out, nights in, days out, days in, everywhere and anytime i want to be in, i'll be in. As i grow up i will not let my circle get smaller. Improvement for me is forever. I will keep passionated. And inspired of something that i believe. I will love my self and i'll educate my self everyday. I will see the world and i'll learn everyday. Hard skills, soft skills, moral values, i will keep my self enriched. And entertained for something that i love. I will love and respect my husband, i will love my kids, my family and we'll run the world together. Teach my kids how to survive, how to be thankful and how to appreciate life. They say as they grow up they want quality, well i dont want to wait till next time. I am making it now. And i just like it that way. I have no reason to be passive. I have no reason to stop expressing my self to the fullest. I have no reason to be unproductive. I have no reason to stop doing what i love and having fun with it.

Life is wonderful. My God is amazing.

Memory

There are two kinds of memories that are always haunt your life
One is the thing you want to keep
And the other is the one that you would try so hard to forget
A shameful one
I never thought that you were in the list of something that i will make an effort to erase
And all those stupid phrase
If i had to choose then i'd rather blind
So i can love you for a thousand year
So i don't have to see the real you
But its okay. I am okay.
We're okay.
Just want to put it behind our back.
And I pray for you to fly away
To go as far as you can so i don't have to see you
because i guess this feeling has fallen down too deep
But how many time i try to get up to erase you
One thing funny is that you're still my inspiration after all